what we're not

i've had a good dose of thinking i should be something else for the past 6 months. lots of other things

that can only mean trouble. mostly pain, struggle, using energy...

it went like - i was hearing things from someone i was close to...and taking them negatively every time - then i'd spend a great deal of effort digesting that information, justifying myself, telling myself i was not like that...

sometimes the things weren't intended to be negative, but i managed to take them that way...

so, now...appreciate the lessons, practise and reflect...

a final thought - life seems to make us experts in what we're not...what about dropping all that and being who we actually are? hmmm