the catchup blog

i'm starting to appreciate the rigours of the committed blogger...remembering to put up a post everyday, the pressure's kind of on when you insinuate in your blog title that it's going to be daily...ah well...

friday night Tiffany and I went to a Japanese Ramen noodle restaurant in The Galleries Victoria in the city...really great fresh food...then walked down Pitt St towards the Opera House against a backdrop of Sydney festival bits and pieces going on and the general buzz of a Friday night in Sydney in summer on a coolish humid evening...

for future reference, that walk is spectacular - down Pitt past the fancy hotels and offices on the left hand side...the Opera House drew my attention, then, as you're walking along the buildings finish and the bridge looms large to the left as you amble towards the Opera House...

We had some interesting discussions about what makes us happy in our life and do we think we know ourselves. Tiffany's opinion on me is that I change my behaviour when I meet someone knew, which I shouldn't do. It's a fair point, though I think everyone tries to present themselves in a certain light in any situation - this is probably part of ego deception - i think i present this way in the world, when other people's perception might be completely different...i guess the way to deal with this is to recognise how you try to present...but not get too caught up in thinking about it too much...the recognition is a pretty valid process and it leads to some kind of truth or authenticity in knowing that you're attempting to present yourself.

I also got the third degree about how much i practise yoga and the way it limits me in some areas - staying out late at night, for example...and how I still seem confused about what makes me happy and what's important and acting authentically...if i'd been practising yoga for 6 or 7 years and i'm still not clear on these things, is it worth backing down a bit?

i guess some of the yoga philosophy talks about these questions, that when you're practising there will be a lot of uncertainty...it's not a linear progression at all...and that's definitely what i've experienced :) there are elements of faith that what you're doing will mean changes, sometimes it's hard to see whether these changes are good or bad - though these concepts are pretty abstract and subjective anyway - things are neither good nor bad, it's thinking that makes them so - the notion that things are what they are - this is what is...

underlying all this though, subtely and sometimes in such small increments, sometimes in large increments, i feel progress that is real...this to me is proof of the course that i'm following :)

trying to articulate this progress though, is...hmmm maybe a waste of energy?